I'm really worn down. I am getting tired of being picked-on for little insigificant mistakes, and not even purposeful mistakes, but mistakes born out of mixed information from authorities.
Truth be told, I have a tendency to be critical myself, but at least I can be loving and gracious about it sometimes.
I feel that most people are out to one-up those around them. To look better than the next person. "Well at least I didn't do that."
I have those tendencies as well. I think it's only natural of our human, sinful selves.
All I'm asking for is a break. A long hiatus. And mostly from just one person.
Because it's always her.
She's always the one to find my mistakes and point them out.
And of course she's perfect.
Thin.
Perfect hair.
High-paid position in her workplace.
Perfect family of 2 kids and a husband.
Maybe she has all these things because she has made sure of it.
I wonder if she's an angry person.
If she's really just a big ball of tension stored up inside.
Slowly cutting off her intestines and overloading her heart.
All I know is that it makes me cry.
Because of my own hurt and because of how she is.
There's no winning in this situation. Not unless something changes....
Meaning her, not me.
Truth be told, I have a tendency to be critical myself, but at least I can be loving and gracious about it sometimes.
I feel that most people are out to one-up those around them. To look better than the next person. "Well at least I didn't do that."
I have those tendencies as well. I think it's only natural of our human, sinful selves.
All I'm asking for is a break. A long hiatus. And mostly from just one person.
Because it's always her.
She's always the one to find my mistakes and point them out.
And of course she's perfect.
Thin.
Perfect hair.
High-paid position in her workplace.
Perfect family of 2 kids and a husband.
Maybe she has all these things because she has made sure of it.
I wonder if she's an angry person.
If she's really just a big ball of tension stored up inside.
Slowly cutting off her intestines and overloading her heart.
All I know is that it makes me cry.
Because of my own hurt and because of how she is.
There's no winning in this situation. Not unless something changes....
Meaning her, not me.
1 comment:
I'm sorry that you're being picked on. :( It's not fun. I've found that usually when someone treats me that way it's mostly out of jealousy and insecurity.
All we can do is change our own attitude towards the situation. We cannot change others. We are not responsible for them or for their actions, including how they treat us. We can choose to treat them with respect when they hurt us. It's hard. But maybe God wants you to use this situation to grow. To be more forgiving and to let go of old hurts.
I'm sure this may be different than your situation, but one of my experiences...
I had a friend for years who constantly tore me down, made fun of me, etc...I chose to not put myself in a position that she could hurt me & eventually cut off all communication with her because everytime I was with her I came home crying. After a year and a lot of prayer for God to change my heart & allow me to forgive her and to see the situation through His eyes, I decided to take a chance and see what would happen. Honestly, I dreaded it. I was so afraid that she would insult me again, and now even worse - insult my new baby. I really made myself vulnerable to her insults. But what a wonderful surprise! She has grown into a great young lady & was very sweet. We had a lot of fun together. :)
Anyway, next time you're in town let's get lunch or do something together!!!
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