Thursday, December 14, 2006

Instinct or angst?

Despite all the practical reasons weighing against it, and the infeasibility of it, I want to have kids. Not later, but sooner.
Because of the aforementioned details we are waiting to start a family. Still, though, my desire to be a mommy is not waning. Today while at work, I heard a radio commercial for Volvo. In this commercial little kids are trying to sing Christmas songs with all the wrong words. It is adorable. All my "mommy feelings" swelled up inside me as if my own child were singing on the radio. It's strange how even before having a child the instincts are already alive, well, and nagging at me.
Although my mom and mother-in-law would be ecstacic if this Christmas their present was news of a grandbaby, I'm not so sure they would like to visit their grandchild in the po' house....
For now, I'll have to wait patiently for a child (only by God's grace), and impatiently for a kitty.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Put them on the tree, put them on the tree


We have our first Christmas tree! It's beautiful. Being the thrifty people that we are, we bought it at IKEA for only $14. We decorated it on Saturday. We also have half our front windows lit up with blue lights. We had a green strand to complete the view, but it won't work no matter what we do. Back to Ace it goes!
I love the holidays. Paraphrasing Chris, who was paraphrasing his professor Dr. Long, "It brings a sense of blurred reality, but also a joyous expectation of our Lord that is to come." How wonderfully put.